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Hello 2015!

New year,

New Life,

New Beginnings

New Challenges

New Love

Hello Xaviera :)

This will be my new year's resolution 

Self Care and Love for my Child.

New Adventures with my baby love.

It doesn't mean that I now have a baby, I cant enjoy anymore.

I will try to loose weight after pregnancy

And I will try to travel and find work

And continue my studies.

It's just hard for now,

Honestly..

I don't have money to buy even the essential things of my daughter.

I'm too embarrassed to ask my Dad for help cause I know I cause him a lot of pain and disappointment 

Already.

I just wish,

This will be easy for me

And somehow I can find money soon.

Oh oh.

New year

No money

Nice way to start my year.

I don't want my child to suffer.

I will give everything I have for her.

I promised myself that I will be the best mom.

I will nurture her.

I just wish my mom is with me so it will be easy for me to raise Xaviera.

Its just so hard to make a move now cause I dont have money.

Well, people are asking me

why did I named Xaviera 

Xaviera Ysabelle

At first I want to name her

Georgina Alessandra

But since I really like the name

Xavier / Xaviera

so I named my unborn baby Xaviera.

XAVIERA means NEW HOME

YSABELLE means OATH TO GOD

So Xavi is a new home we oath to God.

Now I can feel my feet hurt

my head aches

and Xaviera is moving and kicking very much

that it hurts when she kicks.

I can see her moving in my belly

her feet kicking

or her hand

Or her body

And its the best feeling ever despite how big my tummy now is.

7 weeks more and I'm going to give birth.

SCARY!!!!

xoxo,

Nicole