Why?

Why?



Why do we need to have Faith in Him?





I sometimes ask why He gives us trials in life, why is He making all the road so rocky and harsh? Why is He giving challenges in our lives..



Or are we the one making the hardships we encounter because the truth is, He never exists?




Is it OK to question your faith, trust and believe in Him? Is it acceptable that sometimes you think He isn't real? Is it normal to think that there is really NO God?



I wonder what Atheists feel. Whole my life, my family brought me up believing that God is the center of our life, I really don't know how He became the center of it. My family instilled in my mind that He's the most powerful and I should be afraid of Him.



My family nurtured me with Christian Values. Taught me about the Good News, His offerings, His Sacrifices and Salvation.



I sometimes think that The Bible was made similar on how we make fictional stories. That what if those people who wrote, testify, scribe the Bible was only writing such things for entertainment and then it was passed and enhanced from one generation to another?





Is heaven for real? Is God for real? If He is real, why can't I feel Him?




Why do I feel so alone? I know I am vocal about my faith but sometimes these stuffs just come out of your mind and because I don't have someone to talk to without being judged, I choose to write it over down here.



I know my family is there for me, but I am hesitant to let them know what I feel and what's on my mind because I don't want to be a burden to them .



I cause a lot of havoc in my family already and I don't want them to think about me more. I don't want my father to be stressed more, I brought a lot of pain to him already and all I want right now is to make him happy.




I don't usually ask things that I want to happen to God because I am always disappointed everytime I ask something from Him that never happens. I know it's a matter of faith and prayers but why is that too hard for Him to make my wish come true?



And I don't even ask these stuff for myself but for other people and why is it too hard for him to make it happen? I don't want to be hurt and disappointed but I myself makes my love ones hurt and disappointed of me.



It is against God's law to question him right? To question his existence but we can't help it. We will always be furiously curious if He's really real.


My family has this strong Christian faith and values. We practice and celebrate Christianity everyday but sometimes I think it is better to think that He doesn't exists because of a llc the challenges we are facing.



Are these His ways to make us stronger? Does He always have His own reasons why is He making everything complicated? If Yes, what is it? To make us a better person and to learn something from it? If He truly loves us, He won't let us suffer, that is why He died for us and risen again right? So why can't He just make everything uncomplicated?




Gosh. . With all the things I am experiencing now, I really thought of giving up. I just want to disappear so I can forget everything.




Is God really there? If Yes, WHY can't I feel Him?

Xoxo,

Nicole