I had lots of posts here about some random guy "I fell for", and I keep on asking myself. Did I really fall for them or not?
Maybe not, in the real essence of Love. I mean, maybe I did liked them but falling inlove is not the real thing to say.
Maybe I was drawn to the idea of a guy spending his time on a girl like me. I never been in a real relationship. I had two boyfriends in the past but I know its not a real deal. I was young, naive, and doesn't have any idea about Love that time. Maybe I did have an idea but now that I'm more matured, older. Love is a big word.
I met a guy in America. Gave everything for him. Tried to accept the real him, his job, his way of living, his point of view, his habits, his issues. Then he tried to find someone new, flirted with the girl who hated me most but still I was there like a puppy begging for his attention.
Anyways, enough of him. He said I am still young, doesn't know what real relationship is, inexperienced, etc..
Im stuck at school now with lots of paperworks to do. I dont know where to start. Senior year in college is killing me. I just need a break.
So much dealing of my problems too. pressured to graduate pressured to be the best.
P.S
Chuchi got formatted so all of my manuscripts, edited videos, pictures are all gone :(
xoxo,
NP
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