I am speechless. I've been trying my best to grasp the reality that Mama Pid is gone. My grandmother who I consider as my second mom. And here I am infront of my laptop trying to think of what to say.
I hate Goodbyes, I hate not saying I love you before I lose someone else. I hate not seeing or talking to one person you used to talk everyday, see everyday and feel everyday.
She was diagnosed with Parkinson's Disease when I was barely 7 y/o and she had been suffering to it till she died. Today. August 31, 2015.
The disease killed her life. What I mean life is that her day to day living. I can remember that she was an active person, she makes cute dresses, she dye her hair, she plays card, she always wear make up, she's really pretty and sexy.
Now that she's with Our Lord, I know my Mama Pid's suffering is done. She can peacefully rest now together with My Mom, Her Mom, Her Dad and her siblings. It was quite a long journey for her to experience all that and now that she had her rest. I know she's happy.
We've been going in and out of the hospital pretty lately because of her. She got pneumonia and we stayed in the hospital for a week and after that we mostly come rushing to the hospital because of her.
And it hurts seeing her like that. Her body decomposing even if she's still alive.
And now I am thinking what will be my life now. Now that she's gone. It's so sad to live in a big white two-storey house with 9 rooms, 2 dinning area, wide lawn with few people.
2015 waaaaaaaas a tough year..
I gave birth
I lose someone
But I know God has better plans for us. I know He won't let me down. Its just a sad year.. a lot of people came, and alot of people left.
Mama Pid,
Wherever you are..
I am happy that you are going to rest now in God's hand.
I know it had been a though battle for you,
but I know you are looking at us and you are smiling.
I will miss you so much...
And I love you so dearly..
Thank you for loving me and for loving Zavierra too..
I can remember how happy you are everytime you see Zavierra
and the feeling when you hold her.
I love you... Goodbye
Baldomera B. Rodriguez
